Cheers!

It’s weird how life throws curve balls that seem to be unstoppable. I’m still trying to decide if this month’s curve ball was a home-run or a swing and a miss. Karma really gets me back with every mistake I make way harder than other people. That’s my opinion at least, because if I do something scandalous or out of line, Karma smacks my face 10 times harder. I know so many people that do really stupid things and carry on with life like it couldn’t be better. In a way, I kind of like how Karma treats me because I always feel evened out. Like the build up isn’t too big.

I have always prided myself on being the friend everyone could talk to about their relationships because I was that girl in high school with the awesome boyfriend and the perfect relationship. I was the first to tell someone they were stupid for staying with such a jerk, or chasing after the boy that was obviously seeing numerous girls at the same time. Of course, I was over being in a safe relationship and dropped it like it was hott. Jax Beach is the worst place to try to find a good boyfriend. Everyone knows each other, and everyone knows each persons dating record. Of course I started dating someone that I never thought I would go out with in a million years. 

Now I’ve found myself in a situation thinking about what to do next.  I think I need someone to keep me grounded because when I get a little control I take it all and run with it.  My ex-boyfriend, for the moment at least, is the only person that has kept me interested for this long.  Only a tad over a year, but I can’t understand how I fell into the trap of dating a jerk.  Ahhh, it’s so annoying because I love the jerk and I just need a way to make it work or I’m gonna go crazy.  Being single is cool, but I’m over dating people, everyone gets on my nerves because the jerk won’t leave my mind.  I guess I’m going to let everything pan out and take it’s course and see what happens.  Thank God I’m taking psychology classes, maybe I can fix the craziness.